Thursday, August 12, 2010

God's Grace

Sometimes I wish I was that brilliant writer, you know, the one who could bring tears to your eyes--or the one who could convince you to give money for the causes I believe in or the people I meet whom are truly in need.  I wish I could put my exact feelings down on paper (or in my blog) sharing all the amazing things that have happened to me and my family.  I wish I could shout out to the world that all their judgments and insecurities are not valid in my world and that love is possible--no matter what.   I want to tell the world how God has had a divine influence upon my heart and how his grace has brought great reflection in my life.  On the outside it is probably pretty obvious.  Just look at my family.  

Straight from my husband's anniversary card--which seems to sum things up pretty well:

12 WONDERFUL YEARS
3 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN

We are a trans-racial family created through open adoption.  Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that I would have such beautiful children, children that looked so different than me.  People on the outside look in and always say what a wonderful thing we are doing.  They don't get it.  (And I truly hate it when they say it.)  I wish I could convey even the slightest truth of how my children's first mothers uplift me.  How they have taught me to love big.  How they have taught me to trust.  How they have taught me patience.  How they make me feel every time we get together.  How they have challenged me like I have never been challenged before.  How I cry every time they leave.  How they have taught me that my life wouldn't be complete without them.  How they have proven God's grace.  

We finished up our cooperative agreement with Jenay's birthmom.  AND--I have permission to post photos of her in my blog.  So, here are two of my angels--(We will continue to respect Jada's birthmom and keep her photos private.)  Oh how I love them all so. . . . 






8 comments:

...sensible of shoe said...

You are the best, Jodi!

A Family of Love said...

Jodi, you are amazing! You brought tears to my eyes! Open adoption is awesome! We are always so excited to include Matthew's birthparents!

Awesome pictures!!!

Mike and Katie said...

Praise God! That was beautifully written and it brought tears to my eyes looking at the photos of Jenay's birthmom. Adoption is so emotional in so many ways. So many feelings of sadness and joy all meshed together. It completely changes a person, a family, inside and out.

April said...

Great post, Jodi!

Birdie said...

Did you adopt any of your children through foster care or all private?
My husband and I just had our first home visit this morning from the social worker for our home study. We are hoping to adopt through foster care as my sister has done twice.
I love adoption, and I love seeing your family!! :)

Clickin Mama J said...

Oh how I love open adoption! Some moments I am overwhelmed when I look at my little guy and think of his first mama. What a gift she and God have blessed me with. It really is a miracle and the biggest gift of all!

jodilee0123 said...

All three of our adoptions were through agencies. The first one was through an independent adoption resource center (but we were still chosen from a book) and the other two were through Lutheran Social Service of MN--We were also chosen from the book with those two.

Alison said...

Hi - as a first-time visitor I really enjoyed this post. I'm also a multi-racial, open-adoption mom. It's been an amazing journey so far & I'm glad to find others out there who are experiencing the same things - even though you're in another country!